2007-06-14 - 11:45 a.m.

youthful diary

March 16, 1955
Wednesday - Cloudy

Physical condition extremely poor. Is it destiny? Karmic retribution? The result of past slander?

No spirit, no will. I am like someone on the brink of death. The cherry blossoms of the springtime of my youth have now fallen and scattered. How sad! Must devote myself to chanting daimoku consistently. My only choice is to spur myself on powerfully, to show actual proof of Buddhism's strictness and the strict power of my own determination.

After fulfilling my mission to spread the Great Law, wish to die an honourable death. Then I would like to rest for eternity. Quietly, deeply.

Life and death. Formation, continuance, decline and disintegration. Birth, aging, sickness and death. Eternity, happiness, true self and purity. Life from the remotest past. Life that continues etternally. Eternity in a moment. The oneness of life and death. The oneness of body and mind. The three existences - past, present, future.

Without understanding, I deeply sense how pitiful it would be, as a follower of correct faith, to die now. Must fight! Must strive!

Daisaku Ikeda------------------------------------

a little extract from the youthful diary by Ikeda President...It goes to show how tired he was that time... :-)

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